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my brother has no respect.
he argues with me when he leaves to go to his friends, so we agree on 7:30 for his time to come home.
7:30 rolls around, he calls up, saying he'll be home at 8. I tell him it's bullshit and that he should come home. He claims the phone's breaking up.. blah blah blah. I say whatever and hang up.
8:30.. he makes his appearance, claiming he said 8:30 all along. Then, continues to aggrivate me, and slams the door while I'm talking to him.

Seriously, where is the whole respect your elders? I'm supposedly babysitting. I decide to let him hang out with friends, meaning, I get stuck at home by myself doing absolutely nothing... and he tries to start shit with me? It's ridiculous. Next time, he's not leaving the house.

First day of school.. usually I like it better. Today was just sort of a let down :(

First block- I was really distracted.. Tired too. Two girls were talking a lot behind me.. and the what, 3 kids I don't know in there, are apparently their own clique or something? Who knows.

Bloque Dos- ahhh.. spanish. 8 FREAKING PEOPLE!? Such a tiny class, I hate it. I feel like I'm the loudest one in there or something. Uhmm... Pretty sure I heard crickets chirping.

Third block- Physics. Hm, it's not bad. McPhail is so quiet though. Uhm. Despite slightly awkward stuff, I think I'll like this class. Oh! And my new friend Jasmine is in there with me :) She's really cool.. I love foreign exchange buddies!

Fourth block- I think this gave me the biggest headache.. hah. Worked on my 'partner project' with Spaz. She's a goof. Have to finish that up tonight I guess.



Overall, my day wasn't as bad as it could be, but it could have run a lot smoother.

First football game of the season, and I'm so pumped! I love them.. The cold feeling of the metal bleachers. The smell of the turf. The sound of the band ringing through my ears. Ah, call it what you like, but I call it paradise.

See you at the game. :)

So, I wonder... will anyone ever see this blog? I doubt it. Or maybe people do see it.. and I don't even know? Creepy.

Say hello if you visit! :)

Update?
I pretty much messed things up royally with Boy 2 I guess. I didn't feel what I thought I did, and suddenly things seemed awkward between us. With school starting up, maybe things will just all smooth out.


Know what's frustrating? The fact that whenever things get going well, I somehow find a way to mess them up. I also tell myself, "Can't have the ups without the downs," but for once, I just want to see something work out, you know? Or like, things will be going good with a guy, and suddenly me and my mom are on the fritz. I don't know. I just get tired of it all.

I put on this happy face, and try to make things seem okay. I don't think I let on as much as I'm feeling inside... and only a few people probably know that. Behind every smile, there's a million thoughts. I never stop thinking. I can't stop thinking. I guess it's not something horrible, but I do get myself worked up over nothing. I wish people knew how much I cared. Maybe they'd take more of an interest or something, blah.

I ramble on too much.

I'm mad that I never ended up using this, this summer... Maybe things will change once school starts?